We’ve all heard of heartache. We know it’s a part of heartbreak, but that you could feel heartache either before or after heartbreak, making it an enduring pain, difficult to overcome.

After your heart breaks you feel heartache, or, you feel heartache and seek ways to prevent heartbreak – either way it lasts.

But I suffer though from something else now:

soulache.

and I dread soulbreak.

The world decays because we humans suddenly increased in population over the last 150 years. We are the middle children of the human population explosion, the witnesses of the terrible burden we now place on the great organism we call our earth.

We are out of control. I witness it.

It hurts my soul.

My family was destroyed through immigration and divorce and cultural oppression. No one I ever thought loved me, does. I have lost all my friends and family. I am alone. I have no feelings of trust for any of you anymore.

These personal abandonments hurt my soul. I endure them.

My soul aches for years now.

I know there is no God to comfort me. These are the circumstances of my time on this plane.

I sense an interconnectedness, a spiritual linkage of some kind behind the math of it all. There is good. Truth exists. I keep and tend to truths myself. Others do, too. I read them as possible.

But my soulache is exacerbated by the fear there is no hope.

Meditation to empty my soul is the only respite from the ache. It works. But lasts so briefly.

I have read that if I continue this process of meditation I can overcome the misery. I hope so. Which means at least that small amount of hope exists.

I offer that to all of you. Each and every soul on this plane.

Love,

Karthik