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nothing it’s never nothing how long ago’d that start?

I love you and the way we dared

nobody I mean nobody wanted us to

and when the baby came

about then

since then

it’s never nothing

but maybe earlier than that even

when I came to you that December and said it

straight eyes open to your face

let’s have the baby now

by then for sure

that summer when you loaded up the Ryder

with S. and left

it wasn’t nothing

so at least that long ago to me

it wasn’t til recently

like ten years ago

I accepted it was

for you


for me it hasn’t been nothing

in a long time

maybe it will never be nothing again


everyone should have nothing

at least for a little while


before we die